Suicidal Thoughts

Nicole B
May 9, 2020
2 min read

*Be warned I write dark poetry and this gets very personal*

When I was in high school, I went through a dark period of time. I was being bullied, going through friend problems, and dealing with major depression during my senior year. It was an awful way to spend the last year of high school. The depression was causing drama to radiate around my life, and it became so painful that I had suicidal thoughts. Now, I refrained from acting on them because I had the help of a couple friends that stood by me, and I found a love for poetry. I was never that great at writing poetry. That gift was given to my dad, and I mainly wrote novels and short stories. Going through that dark time brought out the poet in me, and I wrote many, many poems. 'Suicidal Thoughts' was my first try at attempting poetry and has since become my favorite one despite its dark nature.

Forget all these feelings it's my time to lie still All I have to do is take this pill It'll go deep inside me and eat me alive When you look at my organs it'll look like a hive I'll be so holey God will want me with Him Who am I kidding those chances are slim I’m a troublesome girl who needs to be shot

In a place where the blood will not clot There's a vein in my neck that is pretty major Cut it with a knife and it'll put me in danger I’m broken inside I can’t be fixed I have so many feelings they seem to be mixed Nine months in a stomach is where she was carried But now she is dead, beneath the earth she is buried.